Thursday, January 15, 2009

Me......the "worry wart".....

You know, I have to admit something! I completely have a "little" mixed feelings! Heath started his own business in the fall and is doing unbelievably well. I can almost say things are just PERFECT....his health is so much better, no high blood pressure or medicine for it, no emergency room visits, less migraines, less worry, SO MUCH less stress, nobody that talks "down" to him, he's not drinking at all, nobody to answer too, no anixety.......nothing.....nothing but wonderful blessings ....not to mention his salary has completely doubled from his other job as a GM since he started (THANK YOU GOD for providing!! We pray it stays that way!!), he is being so much nicer to be around & back to being his old self...oh and don't forget about his "hot" co-worker----"ME"!! LOL Just kidding!! So, your wondering what the problem is....well, the "only" problem is the really long hours during the week, every week going to all the auctions! He has to get up early to make it to them (Ft. Worth, OKC, Dallas, ect.). Which alot of times means, coming home late from them. Like right now it is 10:00 p.m. and he has been gone since 5:45 a.m, he is still about an hour and half away from W.F. Not to mention he has had to go to Colorado once and Utah once to pick-up vehicles he has bought there. PLEASE DON'T GET ME WRONG..........I am so blessed to have such a wonderful hard working husband and father that spoils me (us) more than I have ever imagined, but I WORRY SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much about him being out on the road so much. You have to understand, Heath does not do good at staying awake while driving or even being in the car. He has ALWAYS been like this, ever since I met him! I ALWAYS drive home from W.F. or Ft. Worth or where ever we have been, especially if it is the evening or night time. He did this while we were dating too. I remember times that were on our way to W.F. late and I would be driving there and he would fall asleep and I would just turn around and come home and not even go, because I knew I would have to drive all the way home, being the only one awake after what ever we did that night. I am so proud of him for doing so good with the business, being so happy and loving what he is doing, but the price of worry is "very hard for me!". Please pray that I will just be able to turn it over to God and "try" not to worry so much. (I am just like my wonderful loving late Granny, that I "worry" about what to "worry" about!:) Anyway, I would just like to hope and pray that the worry will go away, but I guess that is part of the "business"...........of being a wife (and a mother!).